its done

its over
its clear
at last he said he didnt love me from the start
love cannot be forced
he just dote me only
he lied me so many times
i m really stupid
i hate myself
i am really hurt
I DID REALLY HATE YOU NOW !!!

please understand me

why ?? its all become like this
i never imagine it
why it suddenly changed ?
where are you ?
i just want you love me more
care me more
bu xing ma ?
chuo ma ?
why i still failed ??
i'm really tired
did you really love me ? or just feel pity for me ?
tell me please
what i am in your eyes ?
i feel that i'm totally dont understand you at all
we are just like stranger

no more kiss no more hug
no more holding hands
less communication ,
is this still call a couple ??
tell me please ...

i am really tired
i am afraid
did you know ?
why it suddenly become like this ?
wish that you read this
how glad if you know this
i did really love you

i miss him a lot

last night he told me that he is going to malay for check-up to the doctor with his mom and da sao
he said that he felt afraid , and i told him everything will be okay ! do not need to worry too much !
he hug me tight ! i can feel that what he feel
and he wemt there this morning
suddenly i m worried about him
he'll be okay right ?
poaitive thinking please
i am waiting for your news
and remember that
i will stay by your side
i won't leave you
i love you dear
and i miss you a lot ~
i keep praying to the god
hope you'll be okay
as long he is okay
i'll try my best to keep my promise to you god

my feel

finally
my mom agree with us without any condition
same as my dad
suddenly they are like my friend not my parents
feel really happy
i just realize that god really love and dote me
give me a parents like them
give me him to fill my empty life
i am not the perfect one
but i'll try my best to be the one you love
:)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !!!!

OHH !!
2 days go on from noww
its chinese new year
time past very quick
but i see this year really don't have chinese new year " Qi Fen "
*SIGH*
feel tired that we busy to prepared many thing for chinese new year but it past without anything special happen
haiss
but
i still hope that this year my family still healthy and become more richh !!
ahahhaha
hope i can pass the test smoothlyy !!
AMIEN !!
hahahahah
HAPPY CHINESE NE YEAR ALL =))

You Make Me Love You More

did u remember ?
that day you told me that i can't love you .
i didn't ask you why
bacause you already told me and i know that we are family .
you know ?
i were really hurt
i told myself that i don't want to hope to much
as long as we can be friend
it is enough for me
but while i was trying my best to forget u ,
u came to my life again.
if u don't love me ,
stop give me hope
don't let me misunderstand with all you give me .
it'll hurt me deeply :(

GOAL OF MY LIFE

till now
i just realized that what i want to do in future
i just found it
i guess it's too late to know it
but sometime i think it's haven't late
you still have time to pursue it
but i am afraid if i m failed
i am afraid i can't get it
what should i do
must i give up ?
can somebody tell me ??
sometime i feel i regret that i take this faculty
but if i didn't take this i probably can't continue that faculty
aaaargggg
really need a long holidayyyy !!
does it posible that someday i can become a doctor ??
ahahahhaah
i think its imposiblee